Don’t Run Away

5/18/2021

Have you ever been in a situation where you feel like you just walked into the pit of hell and everything inside you is screaming RUN? Chaos, confusion, this frying pan is HOT – and the kicker is the fact that you said yes to this. You put yourself in this position.

You’re the one who opened your home to a troubled foster child, you’re the one who said yes to a new job that was supposed to move you closer to your career goals, or even yes to a marriage that feels like WW III.

Maybe you’re the one who stepped up to care for a parent with worsening dementia and now you’re left carrying a weight that grows heavier with each passing day.

When there’s no going back, when you’ve committed yourself to this task and fight or flight is kicking in and you’re desperately considering flight – that’s when you must buckle down and get ahold of God for this situation.

I’m trusting you sought God before you committed, albeit probably not realizing the land mines that lay in this path. But before you run, you’ve got to remember that God is there. If he led you to this place, he can also keep you in this place, no matter how hot the fire or how high the flames.

“I can never escape from your spirit! I can never get away from your presence! If I go up to heaven, you are there; if I go down to the place of Sheol, you are there… even there your hand will guide me, and your strength will support me.” Psalm. 139: 7, 8, 10

Heaven or hell, God is there. He can turn dark into day. He can illuminate your heart and your mind and give you the wisdom, the guidance, the strength – what it takes – to see this thing through and to come out on the other side. To realize what you envisioned when you first committed. A happy family, a blessed marriage, a mother or father that may not recognize you anymore but who feels cared for and loved.

Proverbs 28:1 says, “The wicked run when no one is chasing them, but the godly are as bold as lions.” This is not the time for flight. No one is chasing you, God is with you. This is the time to be bold and fight.

Fight for why you said yes, believe for it – and don’t run.

Man running Photo by Mitchell Orr on Unsplash

2 Comments

Anna

5/20/2021 09:58:21 am

Good Morning Laura!
I love how you state Heaven or Hell, God is there.
I believe this now but 15+ years ago I did not.

It’s fun to see you wrote this just a day before my sons birthday. As he and I mostly traveled to Hell and back after we both years ago (when he was 12) reacted to hepatitis B vaccinations.

After the second immunization shot of the cycle of three, chaos was upon us. After a time of fighting with the Dr for guidance on the symptoms he was exhibiting: night terrors during the day while he was awake, disorientation, several seizures a day. The Dr suggested I give him Benadryl for his “anxiety and symptoms”.
Without the guidance of the Dr, we took Tyler to an emergency room. They hooked him up to an EEG that showed status elepticus which means he was in one constant seizure. He was rushed to the ICU. Once stable and in a room on a different floor, I demanded to the Drs he was having effects of the immunizations he had received just weeks before. Their next step was to call in a team of psychologists, separated us all who were present and ask personal questions which We answered them all. We had nothing to hide as we were the ones aware of the changes that occurred since the shots.
When the interrogations were over the Lead teaching Dr of Psychiatry admitted that he and his team were called in to decide if they were dealing with a Mom with munch houser disease (I believe was the diagnosis). He apologized and said he could see we were all clearly under a lot of stress from the current situation and that clearly I was not under any psychological disease in my current reactions to my Sons illness. He gave us his business card, again apologizing and stating if their actions continue to call him direct and he would advocate for us.
At this point I began asking where is the God of my childhood in all of this? In my anger I put “Gim” into time out. It was only Jesus and Mother Mary I prayed to as I knew she would understand my heart. My Son was failing quickly with too many seizures to count. More medicines were added. Due to the treatment at this UC hospital, through an employer we were given access to the top Dr of UCSF.
It’s an experience I feel guided to write out at some point but I share a small bite here as I know so many are struggling. It was a walk in Hell that I know Jesus and Mother Mary were with us every step of the way as we had too many mystical encounters to think otherwise.
Jesus lead my heart back to an Adult relationship with God healing the missqeud ideas of who God is.
God is in my every day work as a Licensed Masaage Therapist. He is in our everyday. God has come outside the walls of church to come into our everyday Church with Him. As it says in the Bible our body is the temple.

My Son was discharged to go home at age 12 with a helmet on his head, having over 50+ seizures a day, a diaper, a bag full of pills and cognitively a 5 year old. Tyler just turned 33 on the 19th of May. His brain regained, his body regained, his spirit regained. Today we wait as his wife is pregnant with their second son due in July. God is Love......All the time! I wasn’t Love. I was anger, I was fear, because of the medical treatment by those in “authority” who didn’t want the liability of side effects of immunizations, tried to squash me. But it was through the awareness of Jesus and Mother Mary every step gave me strength to endure. Jesus is the Great Physician. He healed my son.
Unfortunate my phone is not allowing me to scroll to the top to re read through what I have shared so I apologize for the typos that probably exist within it. It’s a journey that’s not easy to share yet although it happened many years ago. But in it I also know to share it, heals a part of it as it is no longer held.
Thank you again for this current writing of do not run as I realize today, I have stopped. I have shared. And now I own that I need to write it all out to fully let it heal.
May God Continue to Bless Us All!
Anna

Laura Woodworth

5/20/2021 10:37:25 am

Dear Anna - thank you for sharing your powerful story of love, redemption and healing. I strongly believe that stories like yours need to be told and shared with the world to help others along the way. May God guide you in this journey. Blessings -Laura

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